Im having a Tai Fraser moment. I know, I have many of those, I can´t help it... Amy Heckerling made Clueless my bible when I was a bitty witty teen. That woman has some word power!
Today I went hiking, as I do every morning (well except when I stay up really late watching Seinfeld reruns and I can´t get up the next morning, oh and Sundays, as if!). I absolutely love the feeling of accomplishment that I get when reaching further heights, I literally get high on being high... And I have so much fun up in the hills, when Im on my own and I can just play around pretending Im in a musical or some stage like The Voice. Ive been working on my coreo for Nina Simone´s I love To Love ♪ ♬ ♩ "I just need a guy with a Frank Sinatra touch" ♪ ♫ ♬. You´d be surprised at how excellent Nina goes with hiking, good combo for any day of the week ... except Sundays!
As I was stabilizing my position for my grand presentation, I saw not one but TWO hotties pressing their brakes on downhill grade and just passing me by. I got a little embarrassed of course, considering I was thinking that the hills were completely my own and being a Saturday I had the best idea of them all, I went hiking in my pajama pants! I was not feeling very sexy, needless to say. But the thing that worried me most were my buns (referred to as bums in some hemispheres). Ass, behind, gluteus maximus, all of the above! I felt very self conscious for a moment about that rear-end and the fact that despite all my efforts, you could still pinch em´ with a certain ease...
As I was stabilizing my position for my grand presentation, I saw not one but TWO hotties pressing their brakes on downhill grade and just passing me by. I got a little embarrassed of course, considering I was thinking that the hills were completely my own and being a Saturday I had the best idea of them all, I went hiking in my pajama pants! I was not feeling very sexy, needless to say. But the thing that worried me most were my buns (referred to as bums in some hemispheres). Ass, behind, gluteus maximus, all of the above! I felt very self conscious for a moment about that rear-end and the fact that despite all my efforts, you could still pinch em´ with a certain ease...
(About twelve years ago I embarked on a pilgrimage towards Basilica de Luján in Buenos Aires. Thousands to see the virgen, I went along to tighten my thighs! Im not religious but I really needed the exercise. As I recall, I kept stopping every few miles to check if they were getting a bit harder. I didn´t make it all the way but I did lose a couple of pounds along the way so it was worth the effort!)
So in this moment I started having doubts whether this type of exercise was working for me, if I shouldn´t try running or swimming instead... This uncertainty made me feel really sad, how could I go from having the best time ever to been nothing-butt depressed?
And before you start jumping to conclusions of whether Im bipolar or straight up insane, I should make something very clear. I am a bit of what you would call an extremist, an all or nothing kind of girl, Im working on it and it´s one of the reasons I created this web space. Im sorry it´s not just to make you happy... So I did feel a bit of frustration when I realized there was still a lot of something hanging loose back there. I had an - Ive been on a diet for a month and I gained 10 lbs - moment!
But then I stopped for a moment and I thought about all the reasons I began to hike in the first place and it became clear to me that having buns of steel was just one in a bunch. And if I had to live for the rest of my life with a jelly jiggling backside, I would be totally ok with that, after all it´s my backside. And I would still have the time of my life going up the hill (backwards). I do that sometimes, to change the scenery...
Sometimes our view needs to be widened, we get stuck on the little things that make us uncomfortable or unfulfilled and in reality we have a whole lot more going on. There is never a sole purpose for doing the things we do, instead it´s a combination of many goals that we conveniently tie into one. So try breaking this combo down and you will find a million reasons to be motivated to pursue whatever it is you're doing...
And before you start jumping to conclusions of whether Im bipolar or straight up insane, I should make something very clear. I am a bit of what you would call an extremist, an all or nothing kind of girl, Im working on it and it´s one of the reasons I created this web space. Im sorry it´s not just to make you happy... So I did feel a bit of frustration when I realized there was still a lot of something hanging loose back there. I had an - Ive been on a diet for a month and I gained 10 lbs - moment!
But then I stopped for a moment and I thought about all the reasons I began to hike in the first place and it became clear to me that having buns of steel was just one in a bunch. And if I had to live for the rest of my life with a jelly jiggling backside, I would be totally ok with that, after all it´s my backside. And I would still have the time of my life going up the hill (backwards). I do that sometimes, to change the scenery...
Sometimes our view needs to be widened, we get stuck on the little things that make us uncomfortable or unfulfilled and in reality we have a whole lot more going on. There is never a sole purpose for doing the things we do, instead it´s a combination of many goals that we conveniently tie into one. So try breaking this combo down and you will find a million reasons to be motivated to pursue whatever it is you're doing...
“It is a narrow mind which cannot look at a subject from various points of view.” - George Eliot
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