Despite what many people think regarding my social skills, including those very close to me, Im quite the introvert. Its hard to explain, I can be the life of the party at times, the wing man, the improviser, the spontaneity princess. As a matter of fact, the photo above was taken with people I met last night! So it´s easy to stereotype me into the outgoing, traditional aquarius social butterfly which from time to time becomes a real necessity as a means to get out of my head.
But Im not comfortable walking into a social setting. All these weird thoughts go through my head, insecurities, over thinking, et which is characteristic of an introvert (not to be confused with shy, lazy or procrastinator of the saints). Social anxiety? Call it what you want, I refer to it as Moments of Discomfort triggered by the unknown and change of scenery.
There´s nothing I enjoy more than staying home and watching movies or reading, honestly. And not to avoid this so called change of scenery, I really love it. Its fun, entertaining, replenishing and relaxing. I always ask myself if I think I could live somewhere out there, completely isolated (this includes a boy a dog and maybe baby)... and be happy, away from it all. I have a feeling I would start getting Social Urges here and there... They have become less frequent as Ive gotten older so its just a matter of time I suppose until I figure out if this is the way I will be forever and ever...
Networking is amazing though, it´s a great way to meet people and the opportunities, wow, endless. You never know who you're gonna bump into. Take last night, I was invited to a party and met a head hunter with whom I had a very interesting conversation about Venezuela, his hometown, business plans, ideas, it was very powerful and I don´t think I would have met this man in other circumstances...
I came home with lots of numbers and business cards, now I have to work on the follow up, that´s the hard part, don´t you think? - Hey, it was great meeting you, wanna get together for a cup of coffee? - I wonder if this strategy still works, Ill let you know...
I also came across a whole bunch of very interesting characters so the social circle expands, and who knows, perhaps one of these people becomes a close friend or boyfriend someday... I sometimes feel like a "people collector", very few close friends and a million acquaintances. I like knowing that I know people, you know? Imagine living in a huge city like this one, its very comforting to have these connections and also fun to be able to have brunch with someone one day, dinner the next and visit the Cinema Museum accompanied by someone who shares your interests. But what makes a close friend? Well, that´s a whole other story....
“Never miss a party...good for the nerves--like celery.”
― F. Scott Fitzgerald, Gatsby Girls